A few weeks back in a post I had done for our Blog I mentioned that I was relating this experience to the game of golf.
I can hear some of my instructor’s words now:
“Don’t swing to hit the ball - Play through the ball” he stressed.
“Picture the entire flight of that ball rising high over the fairway and coming to land on the green near the pin for a short putt in to score. BE THE BALL”.
Well that was how I started out. Not looking at the Cancer but looking through and past the Cancer to the other side. What I wasn’t prepared for in this game is that the Cancer sometimes makes me the Ball.
At times I am the one that gets hit and flies off into the rough. (Cancer is not a very good golfer). It sometimes has me riding right out there in the middle of the fairway, then a crappy swing and I am in the rough again.
As in Golf everyone plays their own game. Everyone will approach a course with a different stride, swing, club and ball.
Golf is said to be the GREATEST Game ever played. Just like life, it can never be won or lost. It can only be played.
You are competing against yourself and testing every fiber of your moral integrity.
Cancer is not a lot different. Everyone’s game will be different. The course you are playing is ever changing. You have to pull from the person you truly are if you are going to complete the game. Just like in golf it is easy to not put everything you have into each hole. What you failed to do on hole two may come up to bite you on hole five. You must pay attention to each detail as the game is unfolding and act accordingly. You have to be honest with your score card and if you had a bad hole mark it down, take your lumps and then plan for a better next hole.
As in Golf the “Golf Gods” always give you that one great hole, or that one great drive that will keep you coming back and so will the Cancer. Take those days that are good and tuck them into you game bag to be pulled out on the days that life has you in the bunker.
As in Golf self honesty is of the utmost importance, just like Cancer. Yes I have had some rough days and yes I will have some more before this round has ended. Am I disheartened by my performance on the course? No you see I am just a “Duffer” and my skills improve every day.
I’ll keep you posted as we approach the back nine.
Thanks for being my caddy today.